Author: ceceliaelizabeth

To whom it may concern,

It’s a new year so it’s a new me. Right? Not quite. This blog is going to get personal but no one reads it so I think it’s ok.

About a month ago I started on a mild anti-depressant. I was never officially diagnosed but the doctor prescribed it and I trust him. It’s helped a lot. Medication isn’t always for everyone but it worked for me. The only thing I really don’t like about it is my need to talk. Before I was content sitting and listening, but now it feels like I need to talk or I should be talking and I really don’t like that.

Christmas is over, the play is over, my college class is over, and my junior year is almost over. I’m so ready to move on with my life it’s kind of killing me. I just want to be somewhere else and not in high school. I told a guy at rehearsal one night that I was going to quit high school and go to college. I was joking because I know that I can’t drop out. However, he took me completely seriously. He said I could just drop out go to night school and get my GED. Clearly, he didn’t know I was joking or the amount of anxiety failing high school gives me.

Although in happy news I just got a cat. She is adorable. She’s all black with green eyes. We named her Loki because she whines when you don’t pet her, she runs around, and stabs you with her claws.

So to the 0 people that read this blog wish me luck. It’s exam week. There’s nothing like exam week to make you do all the things you were procrastinating doing. Speaking of I’m currently writing this instead of studying.

I’m dead.

Sincerely,

Cecelia Elizabeth.

To whom it may concern,

Who knows when the last time I wrote I really need to just set an alarm or something. It’s been so long and so stressful lately. I mean overall my life is stressful but now even more.

I just looked at my last post and it turns out that the last time I wrote was last month. And I can’t even remember what I did last week let alone last month. I just know I’ve been busy and stressed.

We just had the first big snow of the season and everyone just sort of forgot how to drive in the snow. So many people were off the road including me. I was going to take care of some animals for a lady I used to work with and I got up to 40 on a back road and was feeling pretty good until I hit some slush and fishtailed and off the road. Everything is pretty good except I needed a new tire. Overall for the first time going off the road in my first winter I was pretty lucky.

I suppose a new thing has happened. I joined the crew of Leading Ladies at my local college. I’m no actor so I do sound. Which means I sit up in the balcony and cue music and sound effects. It’s actually a pretty nice gig. The show is in two days and we’re in the middle of a rehearsal right now…..I should probably pay more attention. Although I have like 10 pages and no cues so I think I’m good.

I think that’s it for now. Maybe I’ll actually get around to posting next week. Maybe I’ll just do an update on how the show went. No ones actually reading this so I could post in two minutes or two years and it would change nothing.

Toodles,

Cecelia Elizabeth

To whom it may concern,

I completely forgot to write anything last week which seems to be coming a habit. These last two weeks have been king of boring not a lot has been going on. I had work I suppose. Which is still going horribly and I really want to quit. The only problem with that is that I don’t have another job lined up.

Why can’t I just skip high-school. Just get past all of the stress and get on with regualr life. Then I wouldn’t have to worry about what college I’m going to go to. If I’m going to get a better job. Or how I’m supposed to pay for everything.

Just kill me now.

Even band’s not going well. We aren’t allowed to go on the football field at all so no one knows their spot. And we don’t get a lot of funding so all of our stands and chairs are horrible and the carpet hasn’t been properly washed in years. So many things need fixed. Not just in band but the school system overall.

So wish me luck with the next two years of my life.

Toodles,

Cecelia Elizabeth

To whom it may concern,

So its been a long time since iv’e written anything. its been a busy couple of weeks. its been busy and stressful.

Two weeks ago was fair week were I live and since I show animals it meant I had to be there every day for muliple hours. I was done with the fair before it even started. Taking animals means that I had to be at the fair two days before it even started. Friday was weighins and Saturday was the show. I spent all day at the fair on Saturday just to be in the in the show ring for five minurtes. There’s a lot more I could say on this but I won’t bore you with the details.

Lastly this week has been homecoming week at school. Which means that I got a text everymorning from my friend asking if I was dressing up. To which I always replied “of course”. Today is Friday and the homecoing day. Because of the EEE virus that is going around the area the game and parade has been pushed up a couple hours. So that means I have to be in the band room ten minutes after school gets out to get dressed and line up for the parade. Although it does look like its going to rain which is good. If it rains hard enough then we can’t play becuase the instruments would get to wet.

So right now I’m begging for rain…..please.

Toodles,

Cecelia Elizabeth

To whom it may concern,

Week two of school was productive, we actually started working on things, starting projects, and doing SAT prep. We started SAT prep 7 months early. Yes 7 months. This week we had a practice essay in english to assess where we were and where we needed work. I know that practice will help your scores and the more you do the better you should do but why do we need to start now?

On a completely different note I’ve got to figure out how to spend my Friday afternoons alone. Usually I spend it with a friend as we have the same online class. Except Friday’s all my friends leave at noon. So now I’m left sat alone trying to get from place to place which is causing me a little bit of anxiety.

Although taking a step back and looking at it is kind of ironic as I want to move to a big city on my own in about two years. So I should probably figure this thing out before then.

Toodles,

Cecelia Elizabeth